I periodically fall into bouts of insecurity where I feel that my efforts are worthless and therefore I am unworthy. Or I feel that I am unworthy so why should I even attempt to do good things. At its essence, I know that this fear is true because every person born on the earth has sin and can never measure up to God’s perfection.
But this doesn’t mean that I am worthless. I was meant to see these deficiencies and this sin as a springboard to desiring Christ. Apart from Christ, I can do nothing. But if I remain in Him, He’ll remain in me and help me. My insecurities are there for a purpose.
To remind me that without Christ, I can do nothing.
And, to remind me that with Him, I can do anything that He wills.
My biggest weakness is there to keep me humble and also to keep me sensitive to other peoples’ weaknesses.
I should stay in touch with that weakness but I should never let it paralyze me and keep me from fulfilling Christ’s will for me. The Apostle Paul puts it this way:
If I wanted to boast, I would be no fool in doing so, because I would be telling the truth. But I won’t do it, because I don’t want anyone to give me credit beyond what they can see in my life or hear in my message, even though I have received such wonderful revelations from God. So to keep me from becoming proud, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger from Satan to torment me and keep me from becoming proud.
Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong. ~ 2 Corinthians 12:6-10
God may never completely take away my insecurities and this just might be a very good thing. Because with them, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I NEED GOD.
I need Him to keep those insecurities from paralyzing me.
I need Him to give me the strength to share my weaknesses with others because when I do, they lose their power over me. Attempting to keep weaknesses hidden is what paralyzes because then I am desperately scared of being found out.
Therefore, I want to share my weaknesses so that Christ’s strengths will rest on me. For when I am weak, I lean on Christ, and therefore, I am very strong.